I spent my entire life judging & comparing my body to others, obsessing about food and exercise and never feeling like my body was “good enough.”
I was constantly thinking about what I did or didn’t eat, what I was “allowed” and “not allowed” to have.
My pant size was never small enough, I was never happy with the scale, and I was constantly checking my reflection to make sure clothes weren’t pinching to “make me look bigger than I already was”. 🤣
GAH I am exhausted just thinking about it.
It took peering back at the reflection of my body after 2 back to back pregnancy losses between Ziggy & Tripp for me to realize that in order to truly heal and move forward I had to learn to embrace, love, and celebrate my body NOW, in this moment.
Because if I was honest in reflecting, attaining that size 4 wasn’t going to heal shiz 💩
So, I stopped trying to be superwoman and allowed myself to be supported. 👯♀️
I gave myself grace. 🙏🏼
I opened up space to FEEL. 🙌🏻
I began to slowly talk to myself like someone I love. 💛
And to gain some awareness around the beliefs that I was not worthy, not good enough, not thin enough or not deserving enough. ✋🏼
Do I have it all figured out? Nope.
That negative shit still creeps in, and I am still learning, still listening to my body every day.
Self love is a tricky thing.
It requires some deep inner work. It requires the right support. The right questions. The right care. The right reflections. Especially after years of defining yourself by a number and defining a big part of your self worth around your physical body.
It feels SO.FREAKING.EMPOWERING to truly embody MY body and all that it can do. It is a miracle to have a body!
So, as I proudly wear this swimsuit, I remind you to say f*ck the numbers. Let’s be done feeling like our bodies are inadequate and are letting us down and let’s lift each other UP 🎈
You are not a body. YOU HAVE A BODY.
sending massive love,
xo sarah
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